hey there holidays.

three weeks of pure unadulterated stoning.
awkward.
I've had three day sleepovers & a 'my mum thinks i'm smoking which i am but that's besides the point, she shouldn't know about it' scare.
greatest fucking holiday in ages.

BRING ON THE NEXT HOMEMADE BONG.
ohmydays, i can#t even...

CYAAAAAAAA.

oh hai der.

nothing to report LIFE IS FUCKING GOOD.
that shall be all.

I FUCKING DID IT.

no one thought i would, they figured i would just say all that bullshit and then do exactly what i usually do NOTHING but yaknow those promises i made to myself about 2011 they're coming trueeeeeeeeeee.

when next year comes in 23 days things are going to change for me.
I'm going to stop taking crap from people
i'm going to stop being so self concious
i'm going to stop cutting
i'm going to loose all my extra weight
i'm going to feel good about myself
i'm going to be me
i'm going to punch anyone who objects to that
i'm going to ask out that girl
i'm going to have the greatest year anyone could ever want
&&&
its going to be great.

well i've come out about being gay & i won't let anyone give me shit.
i haven't cut since before the new year, i've lost ten pounds & i'm not ashamed of my body anymore.
i asked out that girl but i'm still as single as ever.
i got high and drunk and accepted. people are seeing sides of me that they have never seen before.
i'm shocking people and suprising them and it is as fucking great as i expected.
BRING IT ON MUTHAFUCKAAS.

Come already 2011.

New year, new start, new me.
Remember?

2011 please be good to me.

when next year comes in 23 days things are going to change for me.
I'm going to stop taking crap from people
i'm going to stop being so self concious
i'm going to stop cutting
i'm going to loose all my extra weight
i'm going to feel good about myself
i'm going to be me
i'm going to punch anyone who objects to that
i'm going to ask out that girl
i'm going to have the greatest year anyone could ever want
&&&
its going to be great.

mhm.

Zoe J hates the awkward moment when she realises she has wasted her teenage years on someone who only put her down and made her feel like shit.

i'm cutting again.

i feel like crap and people make me feel insanely invisible,
snm.